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[05 Dec 2004|08:15pm] |
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man....
the weekends over. back to school & back to finals. blah...i hate it.
2maro going over to Liz's 2 watch making of IJWL. yep, that shall be fun. cant wait.
bed calls.....byeee
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| Dont Say It Will Stay This Way Forever.. |
[23 Oct 2004|05:05pm] |
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today is saturday. yep, its the weekend and im bored. imagine that. last night i didnt get to go with heathe to the numptys show becuz my mom took foooorever to get back to me. :( so i was bummed from that. she got home a little after 9 so i was talking to jarah and we just to see a movie. we were suppose to see The Grudge but nooo it sold out so we were stuck seeing Surviving Christmas with Ben Affleck. so we were seeing a freakin christmas movie in october around halloween. haha. it was a okay movie i guess.
today i woke up around noon. i sat around and watched the puppys and played on the computer for a while. mom totally forgot about guitar lessons so i didnt get to go. :( i didnt get to go either. so thats sorta bummed me out. i havent gotten my permit yet, cuz i guess mom needs something and she lost it so i gota wait. poopers. oh well if i dont get only about 4 months and 21 days till i can get my license. woot woot. then i wont have to have mom or bob in the car with me. ooooh yeahh. jarah, heathe, killer lynn, a-dogg and me are guna stalk sooo many bands when i get my license or when a-dogg or heathe get theres since they can get it b4 me and jarah gets hers after me. yep, so thats exciting.
later on today i might go to Heathe's to see her new puppy. or i might go to fear farm cuz killer lynn wants to go and i do also. maybe heathe and jarah wil wanna go?! hmm..ill have to ask them. so yeah.
this week at school theres soo much shit thats guna be due in English. we have to write this 5 paragraph persuasive paper and its due friday. you got to pick your own topic tho and i picked animal rights and then you had to be either for or against it. im FOR ANIMAL RIGHTS!! i believe animals should be treated the same as humans and not less. so yeah i have to that and then im in this group and we have to present some shit to the class and the group im with are complete slackers. so i duno if we are going to present or not. oh well. wel thats about it for todays rant so im guna go now.. bye!
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| the Used in 1 day .. woot woot.. |
[11 Oct 2004|12:35pm] |
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omfg! the used concert is tomorrow .. woot woot!! yippie.. im so freakin excited. i geta see bert and quinn and jeph and branden and ALL OF THEM!! hehe. since a-dogg cant go im guna see if quinn or bert will call her frum my cell phone at the meet and greet tomorrow, thats if there isnt alot of ppl and if we dont have to stand in a line.. the only thing that is kinda bad is that my mom wants to pick me up early.. nope no way am i getting picked up at 9pm.. id miss the used and hell no. NO!
so this passing weekend was fun. i hung out with A-Dogg,Heathe. we had fun woot woot yep. soo..this week..back to school..arg! i hate hate hate hate it. but i gota get caught up i guess so i mind as well get caught up so i can do more things and go to MORE concerts. :) hmm...oh yeah, im having complete strangers come stay in my house but they are fans of the used and from the used nation so i guess thats kinda good.. heathe and jarah are guna come over and stay the night with me maybe. heaths guna come over 4 sure tho to "check" out the ppl cuz ones a guy. haha if hes hot we'll be snapping random photos at night while hes sleeping and during the day..lmao. well duno what else to write about but theres sum lyrics..
"It Wasnt Enough"
It wasn't enough [x3]
I will try to believe in the things I cannot see
But my faith is shaking now like it's never been before
When I call
And you don't come
I don't know what I should do
Should I call?
Should I even count on you?
I'm giving all I can
It wasn't enough
To keep you in my hands
Should I give up?
I try to understand
Was it ever enough?
I don't understand
So here I am once again
With my back against the wall
Afraid to show you
Afraid to tell you
I don't know you like I did
I've never been so alone
I've never felt so insecure
And now I don't know where I'm going
In my life I'm not so sure
I'm giving all I can
It wasn't enough
To keep you in my hands
Should I give up?
I try to understand
Was it ever enough?
I don't understand
Giving up tonight
I won't let go
Won't let go of you
Giving up tonight
I wanna show you
Wanna show you
Am I giving up?
Giving up
I don't wanna give this up
I won't
[Chorus]
Everything you want from me
I fought so hard for everything
Everything you want from me
I tried so hard could never be
Anything you want from me
Anything you want from me
I gave it all
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| yay!! |
[07 Oct 2004|12:01pm] |
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so this week i stayed home from school cuz i was sick..which sucks becuz next week i gota stay after on tuesday and thursday and tuesdays the used shows. ill just go in @ lunch and have her teach me it. um..so yeah this week i just layed in bed and watched boring movies all day long. i got online a few times but theres nothing really to do online anymore except chat to ppl and nobodys on during the day cuz of school.
so this weekend we are going to viva las vegas cuz its mums b-day present cuz her bday was 10-6. yep..i geta see my aunt and cousins so im kinda excited about that. my mom and bob are staying at this hotel called MGM Grand on the las vegas blvd so me and my sister are guna walk up and down it and be crazy. we might even be able to see mest cuz they are playing friday night(2maro) at the house of blues and that venue is 3 minutes away from the hotel..or maybe when we are walking around we'll see a member of the group or something..haha i can just imagine it now. but then on saturday we have to go to my aunts cuz me and tawni have to stay there while bob and mom stay at the hotel. hmmm...wonder whats guna go down..noooo scratch that i dont wanna kno whats guna go down. eeewwww...
today me and jarah are going to get our "emu" "emo" hair cuts. haha im excited cuz i havent had my hair cut in a while but then im kinda scared becuz i've had long hair for a very long time and i duno if i wanna cut it all off. maybe if i like what i think i want down ill post pix...
OMFG!! my mum said i can go to the used show! yay!! im sooo excited. i want these days to pass really fast. i found out more info about the meet and greet things but it sux cuz we cant take friends in.:( well after the show we are guna hang out so my friends will get to meet them then hopefully...well i think im guna go cuz i cant type for crap and this entry is taking a while. bye...
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[21 Sep 2004|08:20pm] |
making this a Friends Only Journal...
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[14 Sep 2004|05:47pm] |
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update...that journal log i wrote was from last night. this friday im going to mall wtih Heather and Alyssa cuz Heather asked me last night if i wanted to and i didnt get a chance to write that in...so yep thats what im doing friday after school if they decide to still go. school was crappy yet again so thats no surprise. well im guna go up in my room and listen to sum music so ill write later.
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| HOLY FUCKING SHIT!! |
[02 Sep 2004|08:03pm] |
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HOLY SHIT!! last nights show was fucking rad man. so i didnt go to school...so after tawni & yarah got outa school we went. me and tawni actually got there like 2-3 hours b4 yarah cuz she wanted to go home and eat and stuff. anyways... less than jake went on first i didnt watch them tho. anyways ill skip everything till the useds set. they went on 2nd and holy fuck they fuckin' rocked man. the sung there two new songs "listening" and "take it away". they also did blue & yellow, maybe memories, taste of ink and say days ago i think. it was cool cuz bert wanted to do the wave so we did it but we stuck our middle fingers up when our arms went up. then he told us alittle joke. fun fun. then after that we met up with yarah and heather. we then watched snoop dogg and korn. during korn we started our own little 4 person mosh pit haha it was funny. then we started jumping around and shit. fun times. they had this condom booth there and we got some condoms and filled one up with coke and then threw it into the crowd. then these people started like grass fires and shit with paper so we saw them and us 4 booked it over there lol it was cool. linkin park was last of course we watched maybe 3-4 songs of theres and then left cuz we wanted to meet the used badely. so we are standing out there and yarah and tawni go talk to this girl and shes all stoned saying the used left like 2 hours ago to go to san diego and shit. so we were like okay and walked further down the street and we were standing by this light pole when who do you kno walkes by on the other side of the fence... BERT FUCKIN MCRAKEN!! so we all called him over and i was really shy so i didnt walk up till like maybe a few mins later and yarahs all "say hi to her(me) cuz she loves you". we exchanged our hi's and he massaged my hand. i about died. then i asked for a pic and while i was standing there he started massaging the upper part of my back. i sware if that fence wasnt there i would have tackeled his ass and started humping him LMAO. so we all talked for a few and we didnt have a sharpie at the moment so we didnt get any signatures sadely. so he went back into his bus and we were just standing around and these guys walked by and i was all do you have a permenant marker and hes all yeah and i was like ill buy it from you so i payed him 3 bucks for a sharpie Lol. then we were talking to this blonde guy that was backstage by the useds bus and he went and got bert. i was all i got a sharpie now i payed 3 bucks for it and he was all cool. then other people came and they were using my marker to have him sign stuff so hes like you guys should pay this girl 1 doller cuz she bought this marker to get signatures but sadly nobody payed they just kinda looked at me. anyways after that heather got a pic with him and by then i was in shock so i forgot to ask 4 one but he wrote me a little letter . after that he went back in so we stood around some more and saw quinn so again we yelled and he was all ill be over there in a minute. so we waited and thought he was just going to come up to the fence like bert did but he came all the way around to other side of the fence with his friend. so we all got a group pic and then quinn was talking pix of his guy friend saying "act like you love it but hate it" and stuff like that.. it wuz pretty hilarious. so then we got our shit signed and then hes all "you guys should sneek back there and hang out with us" so we were all ok and then we asked how and hes all "pick up the fence thing and slide under..well help you when we get back from walmart" cuz they went to walmart down the street on there little bike things there were riding. so we waited and then we all got this brilliant idea to ask if they wanted to go to like dennys or some place to eat so we all booked it down to wal mart to ask quinn. so when we got there tawni and heather spotted him and me being shy and all ran in the opposite direction. yarah came after me and we were walking and all of a sudden we see his guy friend so i acted like i was looking at this pair of jeans and he saw yarah and just looked at her. well heather and tawni asked him if he wanted to and i guess he said something like "aww thats fucking awesome but we just came here for food" but they got a big hug with him and he even kissed tawni on the cheek/neck. we were all kinda bummed but still that night was the best fucking night in my entire life on this planet. there coming back in october so bert said to sign up on the used nation which i did today and you get like a guest pass and you get to hang out with them backstage so im stoaked for that. anyways i cant wait till they come back haha i just said that oh well..... ok so that was a long update so ill update again when something happens.
*number 1 favorite band..THE FUCKING USED!!!*
***Dead Roses***
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[01 Sep 2004|02:01am] |
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i decided to update becuz i need to get some stuff off my chest. hmm.. what do you do if someone really close to you cuts and stuff and you wanna help them out but when you ask them about it they just run off or walk away? im not so much scared for them becuz i know for a fact that they wont go to the major length of cutting to deep to kill themselves. ive been there before in the past couple months but when i try to talk to this person about like i said they just choose to run away. i dont get it... oh well maybe i shouldnt butt in where its not my business. i dont know anymore. anyways... today (9-1-04) is the project revolution tour with Linkin Park, The Used, Korn, Snoop Dogg and Less Then Jake. im excited, i get to go . we are moving yet again for some reasons that i really dont want to post on here but i helped mom and it got late so shes letting my stay home tomorrow which is pretty cool. um.. nothing else really has happened within the past two days besides school sucking major ass-age Lol so i guess thats it so im guna get goin now...
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[24 Jul 2004|12:55am] |
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I've never met someone quite like you
Sorry for what I've done and put you through
We were together that night
when it all went wrong
Heaven's coming
She moves over and slides her hand in mine
The wheel slips and we cross the double line
We were together that night
when it all went wrong
Heaven's coming
Don't cry tonight, don't cry tonight
I know that it will be alright
Don't cry tonight, don't cry tonight
You're still with me
We finally came to stop on the other side
You were still in the car, so where was I
Somebody wake me up
I swear I must be dreaming
This can't be happening
I feel her screaming
In the end
Don't cry tonight, don't cry tonight
I know that it will be alright
Don't cry tonight, don't cry tonight
You're still with me
I can't breathe, (I can't breathe)
I still feel your arms around me
In my dreams
You're still with me
Now I'm older, still lonely
But you're by my side
I can't help but get choked up
Break down and cry
I held your last breath in my hands
But I let it go
God forgive me
Don't cry tonight, don't cry tonight
I know that it will be alright
Don't cry tonight, don't cry tonight
You're still with me
Don't cry tonight, don't cry tonight
I know that it will be alright
Don't cry tonight, don't cry tonight
You're still with me
good song right there ^ okay so i updated :) anyways...bye
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[14 Jul 2004|07:55am] |
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eh nothing new right now. its 7:55 in the friggin' morning and i cant sleep for shit and it sux ass cuz im really tired!! i guess my bodys restless or sumthin like that so i might have to get sum sleepin pills. um.. in august theres this warped date like the 20th and is in MA and yarah wants to go so i asked my mom and she said i could go with her. were guna stay at her sis's house and itll be cool. but i guess thats about it um...oh this saturday is kt's birthday and the Fall Out Boy concert so i bought 2 tix and im guna surprise her and take her. yarah's guna come along to so that'll rock! okay i think im done wow i havent updated this journal in a long time but enjoy this update cuz i duno when ill post another
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[01 Jul 2004|12:28am] |
this is a really good song right here. im hooked on it right now! woo-hoo :) k im done.
"Time Is Running Out" by Muse
I think I'm drowning
asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
that you've created
you're something beautiful
a contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction
you will be the death of me
you will be the death of me
bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out
I wanted freedom
bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
but I'm addicted
now that you know I'm trapped sense of elation
you'd never dream of
breaking this fixation
you will squeeze the life out of me
bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out
how did it come to this?
ooooohh
you will suck the life out of me
bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it
our time is running out
our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
ooooohh
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[14 Jun 2004|12:54pm] |
| brianzlipring's LJ stalker is valentinez! | | valentinez is stalking you because they think you are rich and they want your blingbling. They are also getting jiggy with your best friend! |
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| Fav Song of the Moment!! |
[30 May 2004|07:15pm] |
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"This Is The New Shit"
Everything has been said before
There's nothing left to say anymore
When it's all the same
You can ask for it by name
Babble babble bitch bitch
Rebel rebel party party
Sex sex sex and don't forget the "violence"
Blah blah blah got your lovey-dovey sad-and-lonely
Stick your STUPID SLOGAN in:
Everybody sing along.
Babble babble bitch bitch
Rebel rebel party party
Sex sex sex and don't forget the "violence"
Blah blah blah got your lovey-dovey sad-and-lonely
Stick your STUPID SLOGAN in:
Everybody sing,
Are you motherfuckers ready
For the new shit?
Stand up and admit,
tomorrow's never coming.
This is the new shit.
Stand up and admit.
Do we get it? No.
Do we want it? Yeah.
This is the new shit,
Stand up and admit.
Babble babble bitch bitch
Rebel rebel party party
Sex sex sex and don't forget the "violence"
Blah blah blah got your lovey-dovey sad-and-lonely
Stick your STUPID SLOGAN in:
Everybody sing along.
Everything has been said before
There's nothing left to say anymore
When it's all the same
You can ask for it by name,
Are you motherfuckers ready
For the new shit?
Stand up and admit,
tomorrow's never coming.
This is the new shit.
Stand up and admit.
Do we get it? No.
Do we want it? Yeah.
This is the new shit,
Stand up and admit.
And now it's "you know who"
I got the "you know what"
I stick it "you know where"
You know why, you don't care.
And now it's "you know who"
I got the "you know what"
I stick it "you know where"
You know why, you don't care.
Babble babble bitch bitch
Rebel rebel party party
Sex sex sex and don't forget the "violence"
Blah blah blah got your lovey-dovey sad-and-lonely
Stick your STUPID SLOGAN in:
Everybody sing.
Are you motherfuckers ready
For the new shit?
Stand up and admit,
tomorrow's never coming.
This is the new shit.
Stand up and admit.
Do we get it? No.
Do we want it? Yeah.
This is the new shit,
Stand up and admit.
So,
LET US ENTERTAIN YOU
LET US ENTERTAIN YOU...
Blah blah blah blah everybody sing along.
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so i havent updated in a couple days. um...nothing really happened lately so i guess ill just post a pic/song. bye!
Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh
Na na la la la na na
I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't
Oooooh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh
I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back
The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The say you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...
Nah nah, nah nah nah, nah nah
I miss you
fuck! it wont let me post a pic...oh well...i guess ill just leave you with the song..hope ya like...bye!
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| Warped Tour |
[22 May 2004|05:24am] |
so i was looking at the warped tour site and i thought i'd list the bands im excited to see this year. well here they are:
-Alkaline Trio
-Autopilot Off
-Bad Religion
-Hazen Street
-Hidden in Plain View
-Good Charlotte
-IMA Robot
-letter Kills
-New Found Glory
-Senses Fail
-Story of the Year
-Taking Back Sunday
-Thursday
-Yellowcard
yup so thats the bands im excited to see...i cant wait. its going to be soo much fun although it sux cuz its right in the middle of summer and thats the hottest time of the year and i HATE the heat i wish that it was either inside or i wish that they had our Warped Tour like im september or november cuz that would be MUCh better..well i thought i'd just update. gota jet...bye!
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| sum quiz results i thought i'd post... |
[21 May 2004|05:41am] |
A GAME-BOY. Youre like a tomboy without the love of
sports. Reality sucks, but as long as you have
your electronics you feel you can cope. Time
goes unnoticed when youre locked in your room
hooked up to your Nintendo, rocking to your
favourite collection of guitar-driven
albums.
Your virtues: Intelligence, sense-of-humour,
individuality.
Your flaws: Inability to cope with real life,
action-freak spirit, reclusive nature.
Your Personality type is the only type that would
like this cool online gothic Game:
www.life-blood.vze.com
What kind of girl are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
Pop punk... I'm not really that fond of you, but
you can churn out some good stuff... Old punk
doesn't really like you but you couldn't care
less...besides it's all about having fun isn't
it?
What genre of rock are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
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[20 Apr 2004|10:31pm] |
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good nite
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[14 Apr 2004|02:06am] |
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bored....well i thought i'd tell you that....nite!
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i've decided to update...i really dont kno what to say. happy late easter ppl! um...ladaladaladatadala..uh...life sucks...school sucks...i suck..haha...well im going to go becuz im probably boring you or whoever actually reads this....ta ta!bye!
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